Monday, February 11, 2008

I'm balancing on one fine wire....

Today (and probably the last several days) have been such a struggle with my darling children. When people say it is tough going from one to two, they weren't kidding. At times it feels as though you might drown because if one doesn't need you for the moment, the other does.

I used to escape life through music and so I decided to drown some of the chatter by filling the house with it. As I was singing along and releasing tension, I found that these lyrics by Colbie Caillat's One Fine Wire seemed to fit today. My prayer today: may God never let me forget for even a moment how precious these moments are with my babies and how quickly they pass (or as my Mom would say "Honey, this too shall pass.")

I try so many times
but it's not taking me
and it seems so long ago
that I used to believe
and I'm so lost inside of my head
and crazy
but I can't get out of it
I'm just stumbling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head
I'm juggling and my fears on fire
but I'm listening as it evolves in my head
I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine
and I was just walking on one fine wire
I remember the time my balance was fine
and I was just walking on one fine wire
but It's frayed at both the ends
and I'm slow unraveling

Life plays so many games inside of me
and I've had some distant cries, following
and their entwined between the night and sun beams
I wish I were free from this pain in me

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head
I'm juggling and my fears on fire
but I'm listening as it evolves in my head
I'm balancing on one fine wire

And I remember the time my balance was fine
and I was just walking on one fine wire
I remember the time my balance was fine
and I was just walking on one fine wire
but it's frayed at both the ends
and I'm slow unraveling

And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head
I'm juggling and my fears on fire
but I'm listening as it evolves in my head
I'm balancing on one fine wire....

1 comment:

  1. Hang in there Sweetie. I know what you're going through and it really can be tougher than tough some days, but don't let those days define you. Maybe it's not so much that your fine wire is unraveling but that your life has just jumped onto a new wire and you're still just regaining your balance.

    You're such a rock star, and I KNOW you're going to be all right!

    Love ya lots,

    Jenn

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